Only comic today.
Roughs are complete. Time for final lines!
Why only the comic?Yesterday, after I've finished two hours of studies I did not have the time nor the energy to properly do the comic. I want to be able to do 3 hours of self improvement focused drawing but looks like I don't have the discipline for that yet. So I will scale back for a while. For now I will alternate between studies and this comic every day.
There is also one more thing that I want to write about. Over the past few days I've begun to realise something. I find almost no enjoyment in drawing lately. Once in a while I am having fun doing it, but it's getting harder and harder. Between drawing commisions and trying to improve my skills I stopped drawing for fun. Right now it's more than a job and an obsession than passion. This is not good.
I realise it's partially because I've begun to invest a lot of energy into becoming a better artist. Only way to do that is to do studies and exercices as often as possible, and that means forcing yourself to draw even if you don't want to. Same goes for drawing commisions. It's not something you can do whenever you feel like. Not if they are your only source of income. Also being an anxious, obsessive fuck does not help. Whenever I am doing studies, I am anxious about not drawing commisions and going broke. When I am drawing commisions I worry about not being good enough to get paid so I think I should do more studies. When I am not drawing I am anxious about not drawing which in turn makes me not want to draw and so on. It's a vicious circle.
Sad thing is, I really don't know what to do about this. If any other anxious art fag is reading this I would really be gratefull for any advice.